"The Past Tense of Eating."
this is something i wrote up in the course of distracting myself during my past week of worrying/studying for exams. now that they’re all finished with, here it is! happy valentine’s day!
I Am as Nothing as a Noun.
(this is something i wrote for my dear friend, Sarah Kelley. [here is her blog! follow her!] her birthday is coming up awfully soon so i felt she deserved something a little early. also, from the reception i’ve gotten from friends of mine who have read this, they wanted me to post this so yes, here is a poem i wrote about destroying a dude who still believes in the friend-zone. very post-modern stuff.)
Like a Ripe Onion, I Will Peel More and More Republican
Shallow children giving birth to shallower kin,
freshly conceived, all asking to be born when
noisy gumbo from offenders and defenders
was unearthed by generational pretenders.
No one minds if you yearn for brick cellphones,
boys from across the pond that piss and moan,
or flags of your region hurled upon dirt.
Nineteen ninety-four called, and out it blurted,
"Must you channel my exaggerated discontent?”,
we get it, you hate the fat and the malnourished,
the cockney in every American discouraged,
gelled up Brits, lined up and flourished.
Give every single sanitation worker a raise
for he spends all night and day mopping away
at the purging of unimpressed intestines,
sidewalks coated in purged investments
of wasted time, of wanton paint-lacking mimes.
The practicing disciples of halting oxygen
adorn in fake dirt, idolizing the grimly confident,
Uncloak my beaten thoughts of it’s leather jacket,
sew up holes in the jeans my generation cohabits,
I have finished praising one decade for a lifetime,
ceasing an untimely serenade of bittersweet chimes.
"Blisters of Atlas and Kevin"
The mailman sprinkled brown glitter
all over postage I sent you.
Inside lay scattered callouses
off my fingers to show you
each attempt to wrangle
how to play your father’s guitar
well enough for my mother’s birthday.
I asked if you could orchestrate
harmonies I had put words to,
movements for curling toes,
rhythms for a broken beat-down,
sobbing with the thrashing of fish skin.
On sun-filled noon, we sat cross-legged,
sheltered in the Canadian wilderness.
We rebel, attired in dark jeans
and waterproof Casio watches.
Carving out the musical notes
of the hum in my throat
that stirs whenever you visit,
with pillow-worn wisps of hair,
with two bark-coloured irides,
and sleep encrusted lids,
and sharp fingertips.
The pattern of your roots
map out fallow terrain I crave
to one day,
scour of all it’s weariness.
You empathize with bulbs.
You are blooming brightness,
seeping into the night of my chest.
The age of every tree,
they render humanity void,
gifting rings to those
we have not seen grow rings.
What is expected of me? I am un
-sure, an able-bodied version of I
sight to foresee no sighs in my future.
All I do know is that I feel most comfortable
following in my older and sunken footsteps,
mapped out below in muddy memory.
In habit of my yearly ritual,
I greet the graveyards of our earliest
Pools of blue sit in people and beaches,
both let superior forces drip in
-side by side of the pier, they ask for you.
To two glasses held high in suspension
of another three hundred and sixty five
typed-out, carefully buried compliments.
Telegraphed from the Byronic heroes,
sides of myself you would rather younger.
Youthful clones lacking effects of passed time.
I ring multicoloured streamers around
the bedroom to form patterns of your name,
our planet rotates, warm and indifferent.
(this is an old poem i wrote a few months ago.)
I said “I didn’t miss you”, in a lower-case thought,
my fingers formed intertwined behind me, self-taught.
Each parked van in our lot blared symphonies,
without an owner in sight to steer any sense.
The blur of the rain only made this seem romantic,
but that weather only blessed us with mutual flu.
Vowing to Asimov, I rip out all of my circuits
in the high hopes of warping the hippocampus.
Revealing too much until your jaw locks shut,
as the onlookers pity our retainer-stricken lips.
In subtler octaves, you feast on gritted molar
until your stomach sank heavy with exaltation.
Twenty-four hours, awake inside of a warehouse,
crafting cliches about a positive future
as the sink overflows with regurgitated black bile,
as you leak sickness to stain the tan-white tiles.
Later, we lather in sins of fetishizing incoherence
to shed soppy morsels of withstanding guilt.
Seized attacks towards our coffee-stained ids,
egotistically seizing in notion of connected numb arms
whilst we lay and linger in light of previous flames
scorched in this bliss like masochistic arsonists.
Biting my tongue with freshly self-kicked heels, I finally set out to visit my grandfather, Gary, for the first time since the days of shoes with little blinking lights. The train ride itself took half the day, and by the time I had arrived, the family dinner had been set and my tardiness would quickly be forgotten as the sight of family seemed to warm the apartment’s atmosphere almost immediately. Before I could get in a proper form of greeting, the father of my mother would have me wrapped in an endearing vice grip of weathered arms and even more weathered Old Spice aftershave that, for some reason, seems to be cloaked on most elderly men.
The occasion for all of the following taking place was due to the landlord of my house redecorating my room, which apparently I couldn’t witness and so I needed a place to kill time for the next few portions of the day.
In haste of sleeker days, flowers serve as monetary
no more will a suit make the modern man a parody
of the human family. Nature and beings of purity
must serve their desires and no title of authority
shall ever alter the minds of the noble minority.
Liars won’t be punished, they’ll be given therapy
in the form of acceptance and the goal apparently,
will be to answer every missing poster. Heraldry
serves as something of a landmark in tyranny.
We will respect all of those shielded by obscurity
and we will endure the cold and it’s courtesy,
not letting the wind-chill shiver us incoherently.
Ages will be null and names won’t prolong legacy,
living for dreary man-made concepts in barbarity
shall make the future specimen keel over in hilarity.
Makeshift crowns will idolize inner peculiarity,
due to a common lack of interest in regularity
which the media (another spec of future’s rarity),
propagated ways one could promote “impurity”
no longer will a blade desecrate a wrist. Forestry
will serve as the backdrop of younger irony,
for their parents were once soldiers, (voluntarily)
of a vastly technological unit. Broken warranty
all marching one by one, the earnest urgency
of the minds of those who sobbed at greenery,
shed blood in Germany, clicked heels with Dorothy
in hopes they could just go home. Most assuredly,
my friends, we will find home. Our polarity
will guide us through hearts beating transparently,
the conspiracy of motion control, though similarly
imitate us – the human family, ever-present majority
will disconnect from the glistening wireless heresy.
Soak your eyes and untie your boots, let us warily
scrub ourselves with wax and ring around merrily.
The elliptical shaped crater drizzled extraordinary.
--Jesse Hutton, 2013
since i’ve been fairly absent on Tumblr these past couple of weeks, here’s a poem i wrote not too long ago that i hope makes up for the lack of personal posts.
Perhaps it was the day you came in that I began to grow fond of you. Your parents had a tendency to go wild whenever being near each other and thus, you were born along with a bunch of others like you. Note how I didn’t use the word, ‘identical’. I feel as if since you were a rabbit (a species not like most), you don’t deserve to be clumped in with the sense of seeming like another one of your kind to the detail. You were different, you were lively, and you had a tendency to poop fairly often.
Three days ago, you passed away in your sleep. I found you that morning, inside of your cage. You looked as graceful as ever, with your fur in pristine condition and your eyes shut. They say that the notion of a family adopting a pet comes from a life lesson most don’t know how to, despite their roles as Mother and Father. The life lesson that we call, ‘Morality’. But I don’t think that was your role in this household, Buttercup.